Samira: ‘I limit myself and my emotions’

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Samira: ‘I limit myself and my emotions’

I am Samira. What do you want to know? I am a political refugee. I guess you could call me a communist.

I used to cry every night. But then I found dancing.

I didn’t know how to do it, but the music had a very strong effect on me and I just let my body decide. So, instead of crying every night, I started to dance every night.

I’ve waited. I’m waiting. For four years. I could’ve done a master’s degree twice if I had got the residence permit directly.

You don’t really want to wait for anything in your life. I mean, you don’t want to wait for your food to get ready. You just want to eat.

Everything changed in these four years for me.

First it was just confusion.

Then it was just hate.

Now I love the people I’m surrounded by, but I don’t want to fall in love, though. I limit myself and my emotions.

I don’t want to ask anyone for help. I want to be strong, independent. I want to carry the heavy bag that is my life on my own.

 

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Last updated: 5 April 2017

Alexander Mahmoud