Samad: ‘Loneliness is my biggest enemy’

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Samad: ‘Loneliness is my biggest enemy’

I will tell you about loneliness: it is my biggest enemy. When I first came to Sweden, I fought it all the time, trying to conquer it.

In my home country I had a large social network. Family, neighbours and friends. I left all that behind when I fled to Sweden alone.

Once, when I had nowhere to go, a Swedish friend of mine said that I could borrow her family’s cabin in the woods. It made me angry with her – was I to be in the woods all alone? My understanding was that only crazy people spent time in the woods by themselves. But gradually I began to understand that we all need to be alone sometimes, to go over things.

But seeking contact will always be a part of my life. I will always want to have humanity close to me.


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Last updated: 5 April 2017

Alexander Mahmoud